2009
Friday, January 2, 2009
♥ 2:35 AM
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL....May all the handsomes be more handsome... all the pretties be more prettier and beautiful...Lastly... GOOD HEALTH and GOOD GROWTH...Hmmmm...2008 had passed... so fast... step into 2009 liao... i just can't believe it... which means...I'M ANOTHER YEAR OLDER and WISER!! Hahahhahaha.....Last year wasn't really a good year for me...Firstly.. got out of job....Secondly.. haven't been putting in effort for my daimoku! *OoPs!*Thirdly.. feeling damn LLC during the last few months of 2008...Forthly.. finance crisis... sigh...BUT BUT BUT BUTIs OVER!!!! This Year, though economy & market are foresee not very good... I really hope that i can achieve and do well for my future...*************************************************************************************
I received Ben aka Mega msg on "What's your dream for this year?"Well.. i guess... my dreams are my resolutions for the year.... Dear XXX,
I wish all my dreams will come true.. i promise that i will harder this year to improve myself..
Loves,
shanz
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Is time to set my NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS!1) I need to secure a job desperately after Chinese New Year!! (this is a must! and hopefully i could really find a job fast and work hard!)2) Settle all financial issues... (sigh... i'm lost! so in need of cash now! WHO CAN HELP ME! *sobs*)3) Daily Daimoku and Gongyo.. must at least chant for 30mins or more!4) Mission.. mission and mission for kosen-rufu...5) Attend all meetings if possible... (was talking to marie jus now over dinner... last year meetings.. zadankai.. etc... were all clashed with our trainings and performances... Let's chant more and hopefully this year will be better...!! this goes to every single one of us.. try not to miss out any of them!)6) I wanna go on VACATION.. (to Hong Kong, Thailand, Taiwan & JAPANNNNNNNNN!!)7) SYDC members - improvements and great growth.. Of cos.. RECRUITMENT!8) My studies.. I really wanna get my degree..!! =(WOW! that's quite a bit... I wish I wish I wish.. i could really fulfil all of them for this year... I WANNA SEE ACTUAL PROOF!! (",)************************************************************************************
OH WAIT!!!DID I HEAR ZAKY SAYS "WILL CALL YOU AGAIN!"MUAAHHAHHHAHAHHAHAHAHHA....SYD'CREW YOU DID A GREAT JOB!!! YOU MAKE SOKA AND SENSEI PROUD!!************************************************************************************
Lastly.... I jus wanna say....
先生, お誕生日おめでとうLabels: birthdays, chinese new year, dance, hrcrew, SOKA, work
Bad New Year
Thursday, January 3, 2008
♥ 7:07 PM
1st day @ work on the 2nd day of 2008 is f***king bad for me!early in the morning had a tiff with my sales manager!!!!AAARRGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!
getting real pissed by him... my tolerence level for him have reached to the max.. MAX UNTIL CANNOT MAX LIAO!!he, being so damn sacarstic in his sms, telling me off that i'm still dreaming and still in holiday mood...Wah KAOZ!! MAXIMUM SPIDER!!!
I replied him in a very super duper sacarstic way too to shut him up and to also let him know that if he continues to be so "bossy" he will die in no peace! LOL!! my HOD was shocked when i told her about how i replied his sms... she was like "WAH! you dare to talk back.." hahhaa.. Really spoilt my new year leh... @#*&$)#%*$)&%)#)%!Whatever lah... zzzzz....Labels: wooddoctor, work
Tuesday, January 9, 2007
♥ 4:43 PM
WHAT'S GOING ON WITH ME!!!nothing seems to work out for me...i feeling so tired... so tired of my life... my work.. and EVERYTHING...i just can't get things right...i'm so depressed... and when i tried so hard to achieve something...there's always something stopping me...dun ask me what.. i dun even know it myself!!!sometimes..i think i can handle things.. or manage my stuffs well...but HELL NO!!i'm deceiving myself...i'm not capable of doing anything...not even to motivate myself to work.. to do the things that i want...this year should be a good year...but for me...i guess is just sux!!!beginnging of the year..and here i'm feeling so damn confused..**************************************
i wonder..
would it be better to just take a break from the busy world??would it be better if i just quit my job and leave for good??would it be better if i could just vanished from the world??
would it be better if i'm born abit retarded??
free from all the stress.. free from all the worries...and just live my life happily..**************************************
no sense of belonging...i just feel that i dun belong to where i am now...-end-
*speechless*Labels: work
