there's a suddenly sharp pain that hurts around left side of my womb..

is not cramp.. is not gastic flu.. is not stomache kind of pain...

i cant really describe the kind of pain i'm having now..

is it becos i have been eating too much.. too late.. too full and lack of exercise??

it can be so unbearable.. but after awhile.. the pain subsides..

this has been going on for quite sometime...

was thinking of going for a body chekup..

but is kinda of expensive though..

i feel that there are some parts of my body are failing me..

*cross finger* hopefully not!

i should find some time to go for a check when i have extra cash with me..

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is been long since i last saw you till tonight's dinner..

i still feel rather awkward when i see you..

so much so that i dunno what to say to you when i see you..

i try to be as normal as i can.. but i know deep down inside.. i just dont feel good..

i tot after so long.. the feeling kind of fade away slowly...

but i realised after tonight.. that it DIDNT!

somehow the feelings got stronger..

i know i do still miss you..

and you still do stand a place in my heart...

what should i do...

i'm tearing while typing all these..

thinking of what happen.. and why did it happen..

i'm so stupid to ruin this relationship i had for so many years..

there's no turning back.. there's nothing more i can ask for or deserve..

is rather heart-aching to hear of close friends getting married and planning their wedding..

and these are friends that we met along together..

once, i had wished for all this to happen to us.. but now..

IS ALL WISHFUL THINKING!

i know i have hurt you so much.. that you are in misery now..

i dunno what i can do.. or rather nothing i can do for you..

You are the best man i ever met..

i regret of not putting in effort and saving our relationship...

i just let chances slip away and let it die..

*sob sob*

I'M DEEPLY SORRY FOR WHAT I HAVE DONE TO YOU.

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my dear sis just asked for my blog to view..

totally forgotten tat i do have a blog.. hhaha

is been almost about a year ago since i last blog or even log in...

seriously.. i dont blog or talked much or even write much about..

cos i dont even know what should i be blogging about??

i dont know how to express my thoughts or feelings into words..

all i know was to just keep it to myself..

those who know me well enough you should know.. =)

but i guess is also a good way.. at least i can say what i wanna say here..

vent all my frustrations and unhappines here..

whether ppl read or dont read it doesnt matter...

my life is complicated.. i wish it was much simpler..

too many changes has taken place..

i dont even know myself..

feeling sucks at the moment..

i need a clearer mind..

to know what i really want...

Please forgive me~

mood: confused

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